Not Enough January 11, 2012

The world is not enough 

Not green enough to smoke

Not blue enough to cope

With a loss on earth

Life and death after birth

 

It is not deep enough to hold my tears

I’m drowned by internal fears

Too many days not enough years

The dirt on my face has now smeared

 

It is not sufficient enough

To deal with my moods

I’m happy I’m sad

I’m tired I’m bruised

 

Too many nights

Not enough lights

To deal with the stress

Of everyday fights

 

I pray that a God does exist

Because this world is not enough

Hopefully the realm of heaven is real

Because life on earth is rough

Flowerbomb December 16, 2011

I shouldn’t have to tell her

What she already knows

Thinking with my head

Because my heart is now froze

Like a faint scent

From a pink petaled rose

Her smell still lingers

On the bridge of my nose

With my emotions changing

Like the vibrant polish on her toes

I miss her so much

And God only knows

Why can’t the thoughts of her

Be quickly disposed

Because I love her that much

I think, I suppose

Her absence is haunting me

Her presence still glows

She’s a part of my memory

And with the wind my thought blows

Remnants of the past

And how my heart she made grow

I long for her touch

With every garden seed I sow

Full Of Ourselves Aren’t We? December 12, 2011

Lately I’ve been coming across people who suffer from narcissism and it’s so unfortunate (lol). Don’t get me wrong, there’s nothing wrong with thinking you’re all that and a bag of chips, but when the actions of your vanity starts to affect others then we have a problem. In the dating world, how can you give me (per se) the attention I need if you’re constantly in the mirror flexing and checking your fresh? How can you assure me that we are headed in the right direction if you are always needing validation from others to make you “feel” complete?…sounds contradicting I know!  If a man (or woman) is narcissistic it shows that they are a weak person inwardly and what strong-minded individual wants to mate with that??? Clearly people like this are too in love with themselves and have no room for anyone else so steer clear and watch out for those infamous red flags such as…

-They talk more than they listen

-They are always surrounded by a crowd of “yes” people

-Their social network statuses are always seeking a response from the masses (FOH)

- Bragging and boasting on what they have or “can” accomplish is a MUST in ANY conversation

 …feel free to add to the list of red flags!

word of the day: HUMILITY

Random 7 w/ Jasmine November 3, 2011

I was featured as a guest post on a fellow blogger of mine’s site and I just thought I should share a few of my ”tell alls” with you!…feel free to comment and share your answers to the questions I was asked as well:)

What was one of your biggest fears as a child?
I never really had a close relationship with my mother growing up, and there would be years that would go by without seeing or hearing from her. My worst fear was me turning on the news and seeing her found dead.




What is the wildest place you’ve had sex or want to have sex?
I’ve had sex after hours at the park in a vehicle -this probably isn’t that wild for some people LOL.




Scenario: If you were getting married and a previous love of yours interrupted your wedding what would you do? Explain.
WOW… I would say it depends on how I “still” feel about the previous love, but then again if I harbored any feelings for someone else, I shouldn’t be getting married until I’ve fully closed that chapter. Therefore, if he shows up to profess HIS undying love, I would be PISSED at him for ruining my day…he had his chance!




If you could have any gift, talent or ability what would it be and why?
As cliché as it sounds, I would say I wish I could sing. I LOVE to listen to and sing songs that lyrically move me…but I sound terrible doing so! Oh wait, I wish I had rhythm too so I wouldn’t be the wallflower at parties;)




What celebrity or athlete do you think best represents you? What similarities do you and that person share?
I would have to identify myself with Stacey Dash’s character on Single Ladies. Not her herself, but “Val”. Val and I are hopeless romantics and we have that little bit of “a blonde thing” going on at times. I think we both have a great deal of book sense but can use a little help in the love department.




Describe the most vivid dream you remember.
I ALWAYS have vivid dreams, but the most recent dream that sticks with me is the one where I appear trapped on a bridge that sits high above a filthy river. In the dream, I am desperately trying to cross the bridge without getting in the water, but to no avail, I eventually have to swim across. Although I was just as filthy as the river, I made it.

 

If your life was ending in the next five minutes, what would be ONE final positive impact you would want to leave on the world?
Being that my daughter is my world, I would want to leave with her knowing that NOTHING is impossible (through Christ Jesus)…work fast, but think smart!

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Woman To Woman: He is NOT leaving her! October 2, 2011

 

October 1st, 2011 – By Rashana A. Hooks

So he told you he was unhappy and that he wished he met you three years ago. He says that they sleep in separate beds and he is only with her for the kids.  He even told you he was looking for a place and asked you to help him.  Sweetheart, I’m sorry to break it to you but he is lying. He is not going anywhere and you’re being played for a fool…

Ladies, let me tell you a few secrets about men.  To begin with they crave stability. Even if he is so called ‘unhappy’ at home its unlikely that he will uproot himself and go look for another place to live alone, his woman will have to leave him first. Men are also smarter than we think. They can sense weakness and desperation a mile away and take advantage of a woman if she allows him too. If he can have his cake and eat it too, trust me he will.  Men who cheat are also very good at making you feel special without making you a priority in their lives. Don’t fall for just sweet talk; let his actions speak for him. Also, men are very practical creatures. They know it’s cheaper to keep her, so you do the math.

While some of you may think, you don’t owe his woman anything by considering her feelings or family because you’re not the one with or married to her; you may be right, but don’t you owe yourself the respect to not be a jump off (yes – it is what it is)? Quit playing that card, it’s old and tired. You deserve much more than that. Being someone’s secret, side piece or second choice should not be your agenda, please understand that.

Always remember, a man will never do anything that he doesn’t want to do. So if he’s still living at home ‘unhappy’ it’s because he wants to. And trust, that “unhappiness” is only for the moment. You can expect ups and downs in any relationship. So, stop falling for the oldest line in the book, because woman to woman, he’s not leaving her…

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More Than Strangers September 28, 2011

More than strangers but not yet friends

We both see potential which lies within

 

Within the in depth conversations

There’s a sense of speculation

Curiosity of a future situation

That could lead to more than erotic elation

So let’s keep up with this line of communication

I love this journey of mind excavation

 

More than strangers but not yet friends

We both see potential which lies within

 

Within the “speechless” words

The loud silence is still heard

The thought of never trying is blatantly absurd

My interest is more than piqued, it is now stirred

So let’s keep this going and never get deterred

I love this blend of art and spoken word

 

More than strangers but not yet friends

We both see potential which lies within

 

 

Jeweled By Moni (#TEAMGIFTED) September 27, 2011

 

       My name is Monica Lockett and I’m just small town girl from the state of Louisiana. I am also a nurse with a loving husband and two children. I am currently writing this in my office as I listen to Nikki Minaj’s “Moment for life”, gleaming at the computer light wishing for my next big break as if I’m a singer or rapper. In reality, I’m executing a natural high as if I were in the studio peforming the perfect solo, but I’m not. I consider myself to be artistically talented, but not in the music industry. I truly believe I inherited this instinct and talent from my parents. My dad and I would laugh all the time at the weird things I would want for Christmas when I was young, such as a clip board, paper, paint, etc. I wouldn’t ask for the normal baby doll type toys. In 2001, I made my first piece of jewelry  for my senior prom. My mom took me to the local craft store to purchase the beads and earring hooks. I used some of her floral wire to put the pieces together. I loved it! I have been making jewelry ever since that day. I confess to loving photography and sewing, but jewelry making is my artistic flare. I construct jewelry from unusual materials such as sticks, silk flowers, fabrics, and ribbons. My jewelry is very unusual and unique.The older I get, the more I want to share my love for talent through my jewelry.

                                                                                                                                                              Monica C. Lockett

                              For more info on Jeweled By Moni visit her website at www.jeweledbymoni.com

About #TEAMGIFTED September 27, 2011

I’ve decided to come up with a category to display the talents of those around me. There are so many people who have a  natural talent that seem to slip under the radar, and I want to use my gift of word as a tool to expose others as much as I can! I will display a multitude of creative niches under this tab, and my vision is for you all to enjoy and support the diversity among us.

My pastor preached a sermon from the book of Peter entitled: Open Your Gift and it simply breaks down like this…

-Your gift is the clue to what you need to do!

-Use your gift to serve others.

-All fingers look alike, but each one has a different fingerprint; Meaning: We ALL have a gift just not the same as others.

-It is something you do well and never get burned out with (It can be as simple as hospitality!)

-You always open each gift that you receive from others on Christmas, so why not open the gift that God has given you!

*If you or someone you know would like me to help you open your gift email me at iameyekandee@gmail.com or send me a message via twitter @iameyekandee with a short bio/story about what it is you do well! Pictures are welcomed!!

Never Get Back September 22, 2011

My heart you will never get back

No more stomping it, cutting it

Then pouring salt on my wound repeatedly

My blood bleeds red not black

But still in all, my heart you will never get back

 

I allowed you to trample on me like a welcome doormat

But this time I’m sweeping you out with yesterday’s trash

Take your great sex, sweet talk, bitter lies and bullshit with you

Because I don’t want it back

My heart beats red NOT black

And my love you will never get back

 

My joy you stole, my obliterated soul

Used, destroyed, disintegrated

My spirit felt no longer elated

At the fact this relationship was never celebrated

I fell in love with hopeless dreams

My sense of wrongness wasn’t keen

I ignored flags of deception

Because you showered me with affection

All while bathing others and adding to your collection

 

 

Is this what you do?

Does hurting me pleasure you?

Well guess what! you’re shit out of luck

Because my tolerance has just diminished

And crushing my heart

I won’t allow you to finish

 

With that being said

My heart still beats red

Because the love I had for you is now dead

With you I have reached my end

And no I’m not looking back

Because loving you again

Will cause my heart to turn black

 

 

Lose Myself August 17, 2011

I’ve been listening to Marsha Ambrosius’ Lose Myself steadily on repeat for the last couple of days for no particular reason until I actually listened attentively to the lyrics. I’ve been very fervent in my prayer life lately and this song has served as an epiphany pertaining to my love life (so I wanted to share). I just want to take a few moments to encourage those of you who seem complacent in a no good relationship. In the song, she infers how our spirits can be broken just by wanting to be in love so bad that we often times stay in unhealthy relationships just for the mere fact of “being in a relationship”.  It’s so sad how we don’t realize that we are worth so much more than how we are being treated. As she stated, “TRUE LOVE” can NEVER really forsake you (Forsake: to abandon or give up on someone or something). If it’s true love, your heart will never feel like it’s been abandoned. Abandonment can make a person feel weary and hopeless; and that hopelessness can turn into skepticism and doubt. We are now to the point where we are so far gone (lost) that we doubt  anyone can love us the way we truly deserve. It is only then after we lose ourselves, we understand that the breakup had to happen in order for us to become stronger. True enough we’re scarred from past hurts so we are no longer able to jump into something new without fear, however we’ve traded that lack of zealousness for wisdom when choosing our next mate.  Hardships help mold us and it builds character. And besides, once we fall down, the most reasonable option we’re left with is to get back up!